life is good

Well, we're off to a good start. Every fear and anxiety I had coming into this semester has literally dissipated. The moment I got to Jackson, God gave me this overwhelming peace. And also this understanding of His voice saying "This time is not about you. It's all about outpouring and looking for others to invest in. Quit worrying about yourself and let me take care of your provision. Simply open your eyes and heart to the people I am blatantly placing in front of you."

That has changed my attitude and view of everything that's going on around me. I have joy in the Lord that I see echoed in my relationships. I see growth in places that were stagnant last year, or really the entire time I've been at college. I'm becoming so aware of all the ways I've put the Lord on the backburner. There are places in my life that I just shut off to Christ and decided I was capable to manage on my own. But God is teaching me about a holistic approach to relationship with Him. When I view my life as a whole, and recognize that my actions in one area completely affect my walk with Christ, then everything seems more black and white as far as whether or not I choose to follow Christ in every decision. I have not arrived, or gotten this under control... it's simply been a series of "Aha! moments" where the Lord is opening my eyes to the very places I tried to prevent Him from seeing.

I love this semester, the pace of my life as it's beginning to get busy. It's manageable only when surrendered to Christ, but that keeps me running back to Him on the days that I fail to surrender. It's showing me how to trust Him to provide and to only worry about how I can pour out to others. 

I've been blessed already by new friendships and encouragement from the most unexpected places, and I am continually seeing His hand at work in my life. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good!